“me – zlatan ibrahimovichi” – tavi II
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#2tavi II
patara rom viyavi, chemma dzmam erti BMX-is velosipedi machuqa. me mas fido dido davarqvi. fido dido erti patara dzlieri multfilmis personaji iyo. me igi sauketesod mimachnda. magram, fido dido maleve moipares, rodesac me igi rozengardis abanoebtan mqonda dayenebuli. mamachemi iq mivida, gaxsnili perangit da aweuli saxeloebit, igi iseti adamiani iyo, romelic yoveltvis ambobda: „chem shvilebs aravin exeba! mat nivtebs aravin iparavs!“ tumca missavit dzlierma adamianmac veraferi gaawyo. fido dido moipares, me ki dzalian gulnatkeni davrchi.
am yvelafris shemdeg, velosipedebis moparva daviwye. saketebs vtexavdi da velosipedebi mimqonda. mogvianebit kliteebis gatexvashi dzalian gaviwafe. davartyavdi orjer-samjer da… velosipedi chemi iyo. me velosipedebis qurdi gavxdi. es chemi pirveli „saqmianoba“ iyo. titqosda es yvelaferi umankod gamoiyureboda, tumca xandaxan problemebic meqmndeboda. ertxel sul shavebi chavicvi, game rembosavit gavardi da erti samxedro velosipedi movipare, didi urdulis sachrelis daxmarebit. ragatqmaunda, es dzalian magari velosipedi iyo, dzalian miyvarda. chumad sasiarulod arachveulebrivi iyo, game shevajdebodi, fanjrebs kvercxebs davushendi da mraval eset xulignobebs gavaketebdi. dzalian ishviatad micherdnen.
ertxel, ueselebis magaziashi, iegesroshi, dzalian uxerxul situaciashi chavardi. tumca gulwrfelad rom gitxrat, vimsaxurebdi. me da chem ert megobars, zafxulshi, didi zamtris qurtukebi gvecva, shignit ki otxi ping pongis chogani da kidev ramdenime nivti gvqonda damaluli. „ei tqven, mag nivtebistvis fulis gadaxdas ar apirebt?“ gvkitxa dacvam, romelmac dagvichira. me jibidan ori cali xurda amovige da dacvas vkitxe: „amit?“ tumca, agmochnda, rom am tips iumoris grdznoba ar qonda, ris shemdegac gadavwyvite ufro profesionalurad memoqmeda. mas shemdeg, ukve gamocdil „maniakad“ chamovyalibdi.
me patara bavshvi viyavi, didi cxvirit. ena mechlifeboda, ris gamoc metyvelebis kursebze davdiodi. erti qali chems skolashi movida da maswavla tu rogor unda metva „s“, rac me sakmaod damamcireblad mimachnda. albat, tavis ramenairad warmochena msurda, titqos shignidan vdugdi, ert wamze mets gaundzrevlad ver vjdebodi, sul aqet-iqit davrbodi. mimachnda, rom aseti qcevit araferi shavdeboda. chven rozengardshi vcxovrobdit, malmios garet. am adgilas dzalian bevri somalelebi, turqebi, iugoslavelebi, polonelebi da sxva uamravi emigrantebi cxovrobdnen. yvela tavxedurad viqceodit, nebismier wvrilmanze chxubs viwyebdit da simartle rom gitxrat, saxlshic ar gvqonda kargi situacia.
memgoni, ver mixvda im ironias, romelic chven am sachuqarshi chavdet, magis dro da adgili namdvilad ar hqonda, magidaze sachmeli unda yofiliyo, mis mtel energias es procedura moicavda. saxlshi sakmaod bevrni viyavit: chemi naxevar-debi, romlebic shemdeg gauchinardnen da mattan araganairi kontaqti agar gvqonia da chemi patara dzma, aleqsandari, mas kekis vedzaxdet. amdeni bavshvis sarcheni fuli ar gvqonda, araferi ar gvqonda sakmarisi. didebs, patarebistvis rom ar mogveara, albat aqamde verc movagwevdit. dzalian xshirad iyo swrafi kerdzebi, rogorc makaroni da kechupi. xshirad megobris saxlebshic vchamdit, an chveni deidastan, hanifestan, romelic imave saxlshi cxovrobda.
patara rom viyavi, chemma dzmam erti BMX-is velosipedi machuqa. me mas fido dido davarqvi. fido dido erti patara dzlieri multfilmis personaji iyo. me igi sauketesod mimachnda. magram, fido dido maleve moipares, rodesac me igi rozengardis abanoebtan mqonda dayenebuli. mamachemi iq mivida, gaxsnili perangit da aweuli saxeloebit, igi iseti adamiani iyo, romelic yoveltvis ambobda: „chem shvilebs aravin exeba! mat nivtebs aravin iparavs!“ tumca missavit dzlierma adamianmac veraferi gaawyo. fido dido moipares, me ki dzalian gulnatkeni davrchi.
am yvelafris shemdeg, velosipedebis moparva daviwye. saketebs vtexavdi da velosipedebi mimqonda. mogvianebit kliteebis gatexvashi dzalian gaviwafe. davartyavdi orjer-samjer da… velosipedi chemi iyo. me velosipedebis qurdi gavxdi. es chemi pirveli „saqmianoba“ iyo. titqosda es yvelaferi umankod gamoiyureboda, tumca xandaxan problemebic meqmndeboda. ertxel sul shavebi chavicvi, game rembosavit gavardi da erti samxedro velosipedi movipare, didi urdulis sachrelis daxmarebit. ragatqmaunda, es dzalian magari velosipedi iyo, dzalian miyvarda. chumad sasiarulod arachveulebrivi iyo, game shevajdebodi, fanjrebs kvercxebs davushendi da mraval eset xulignobebs gavaketebdi. dzalian ishviatad micherdnen.
ertxel, ueselebis magaziashi, iegesroshi, dzalian uxerxul situaciashi chavardi. tumca gulwrfelad rom gitxrat, vimsaxurebdi. me da chem ert megobars, zafxulshi, didi zamtris qurtukebi gvecva, shignit ki otxi ping pongis chogani da kidev ramdenime nivti gvqonda damaluli. „ei tqven, mag nivtebistvis fulis gadaxdas ar apirebt?“ gvkitxa dacvam, romelmac dagvichira. me jibidan ori cali xurda amovige da dacvas vkitxe: „amit?“ tumca, agmochnda, rom am tips iumoris grdznoba ar qonda, ris shemdegac gadavwyvite ufro profesionalurad memoqmeda. mas shemdeg, ukve gamocdil „maniakad“ chamovyalibdi.
me patara bavshvi viyavi, didi cxvirit. ena mechlifeboda, ris gamoc metyvelebis kursebze davdiodi. erti qali chems skolashi movida da maswavla tu rogor unda metva „s“, rac me sakmaod damamcireblad mimachnda. albat, tavis ramenairad warmochena msurda, titqos shignidan vdugdi, ert wamze mets gaundzrevlad ver vjdebodi, sul aqet-iqit davrbodi. mimachnda, rom aseti qcevit araferi shavdeboda. chven rozengardshi vcxovrobdit, malmios garet. am adgilas dzalian bevri somalelebi, turqebi, iugoslavelebi, polonelebi da sxva uamravi emigrantebi cxovrobdnen. yvela tavxedurad viqceodit, nebismier wvrilmanze chxubs viwyebdit da simartle rom gitxrat, saxlshic ar gvqonda kargi situacia.
memgoni, ver mixvda im ironias, romelic chven am sachuqarshi chavdet, magis dro da adgili namdvilad ar hqonda, magidaze sachmeli unda yofiliyo, mis mtel energias es procedura moicavda. saxlshi sakmaod bevrni viyavit: chemi naxevar-debi, romlebic shemdeg gauchinardnen da mattan araganairi kontaqti agar gvqonia da chemi patara dzma, aleqsandari, mas kekis vedzaxdet. amdeni bavshvis sarcheni fuli ar gvqonda, araferi ar gvqonda sakmarisi. didebs, patarebistvis rom ar mogveara, albat aqamde verc movagwevdit. dzalian xshirad iyo swrafi kerdzebi, rogorc makaroni da kechupi. xshirad megobris saxlebshic vchamdit, an chveni deidastan, hanifestan, romelic imave saxlshi cxovrobda.
#3ori wlisac ar viyavi, rodesac deda da mama gashordnen. arc araferi maxsovs, rac albat kargia. me rogorc gavige, kargi col-qmari ar yofilan. isini yoveltvis chxubobdnen. imitom daqorwindnen, rom mamachems rezidenciis nebartva aego. albat gasagebia, tu rogor avgmochndit yvela dedastan. mama mainc menatreboda. mis tavs yoveltvis ragac saintereso xdeboda da mastan ertad drois tarebas araferi jobda. me da sanela mamas yovel shabat-kviras vxvdebodit xolme. igi tavisi dzveli lurji opel kadetit modioda, shemdeg pildamshparkenshi an limhamnis kundzulze wavidodit, sadac hamburgerebs an naz nayins mivirtmevdit. ert dges, albat fuli ishovna da orives „naikis“ Air Max-is kedebi mogvitana. es fexsacmelebi im dros dzalian magrad itvleboda da atasi kronori girda, dzalian dzviri. chemi mwvane iyo, sanelasi ki vardisferi. rozengardshi aravis qonda aseti fexsacmeli da chvenc amayad daviarebodit. mamastan ertad karg dros vatarebdit, igi yoveltvis gvadzlevda cota fuls, picas da koka-kokalosatvis. mas kargi samsaxuri hqonda da ertaderti sxva shvili, sapko. igi chveni sayvareli „shabat-kviris mama“ iyo.
magram yvelaferi male sheicvala. sanela arachveulebrivad darboda. igi sauketeso iyo 60-metris sirbilshi, mis asakshi, mtels skaneshi (shvedetis samxret nawili) mamac dzalian amayobda miti da sul tavisit dahyavda varjishebze.
„yochag, sanela, magram shen meti shegidzlia.“ – utxra man. es iyo misi chveva, „uketesi, uketesi da kidev uketesi, arasodes gacherde…“ am dros me manqanashi vijeqi. mamam ragac sheamchnia, sanela chumad iyo, cdilobda, rom ar etira.
„ra moxda?“ – hkitxa mamam.
„araferi…“ – upasuxa sanelam, tumca mama ar moeshva da sabolood sanelam yvelaferi mouyva.
modit detalebs nu chavugrmavdebit, es sanelas istoriaa… magram mamachemi… igi namdvili lomi iyo. tu mis shvils raime daemarteboda, gansakutrebit sanelas, mis ertadert qalishvils, gijdeboda.
bevri ar mesmoda am sakitxis shesaxeb, mag dros mxolod cxris vxdebodi.
1990 wlis shemodgoma iyo, cdilobdnen rom es sakitxebi chemgan moeridebinat, magram me chemi varaudebic ratqmaunda mqonda. saxlshi kvlav mdzime situacia iyo. ert-erti chemi naxevar-da narkotikebs iketebda, sakmaod seriozuls, danarchens ki saxlshi malavda. mis garshemo yoveltvis qaosi iyo, yoveltvis ucnauri xalxtan hqonda kavshiri da yoveltvis imis shishi hqonda, titqos raime cudi unda momxdariyo. ertxel deda daichires, nivtebis moparvis gamo. misma megobrebma samkauli misces, dedamac wamoigo, tumca agmochnda, rom es nivtebi moparuli iyo, policielebic movardnen da deda waiyvanes. maxsovs is grdznoba: sad aris deda? ratom wavida?
magram yvelaferi male sheicvala. sanela arachveulebrivad darboda. igi sauketeso iyo 60-metris sirbilshi, mis asakshi, mtels skaneshi (shvedetis samxret nawili) mamac dzalian amayobda miti da sul tavisit dahyavda varjishebze.
„yochag, sanela, magram shen meti shegidzlia.“ – utxra man. es iyo misi chveva, „uketesi, uketesi da kidev uketesi, arasodes gacherde…“ am dros me manqanashi vijeqi. mamam ragac sheamchnia, sanela chumad iyo, cdilobda, rom ar etira.
„ra moxda?“ – hkitxa mamam.
„araferi…“ – upasuxa sanelam, tumca mama ar moeshva da sabolood sanelam yvelaferi mouyva.
modit detalebs nu chavugrmavdebit, es sanelas istoriaa… magram mamachemi… igi namdvili lomi iyo. tu mis shvils raime daemarteboda, gansakutrebit sanelas, mis ertadert qalishvils, gijdeboda.
bevri ar mesmoda am sakitxis shesaxeb, mag dros mxolod cxris vxdebodi.
1990 wlis shemodgoma iyo, cdilobdnen rom es sakitxebi chemgan moeridebinat, magram me chemi varaudebic ratqmaunda mqonda. saxlshi kvlav mdzime situacia iyo. ert-erti chemi naxevar-da narkotikebs iketebda, sakmaod seriozuls, danarchens ki saxlshi malavda. mis garshemo yoveltvis qaosi iyo, yoveltvis ucnauri xalxtan hqonda kavshiri da yoveltvis imis shishi hqonda, titqos raime cudi unda momxdariyo. ertxel deda daichires, nivtebis moparvis gamo. misma megobrebma samkauli misces, dedamac wamoigo, tumca agmochnda, rom es nivtebi moparuli iyo, policielebic movardnen da deda waiyvanes. maxsovs is grdznoba: sad aris deda? ratom wavida?
#4selena kvlav tiroda, me ki vcdilobdi am yvelafristvis tavi ameridebina. garet davbodialobdi an fexburts vtamashobdi. arasodes vyofilvar yvelaze gawonasworebuli, arc yvelaze nichieri. me ubralod kidev erti iseti bavshvi viyavi, romelic burts fexs urtyavda, an sheidzleba uaresic. sashineli gamoxtomebi mqonda. mowinaagmdegeebs tavs vurtyavdi, xolo chems tanagundelebs uazrod mivuvardebodi da chxubs vuwyebdi, magram burti me mqonda. es chemi ram iyo da mas shemdeg yoveltvis vtamashobdi, chvens ezoshi, moedanze, ardadagebis periodshi… am periodshi chven verner ridenis skolashi davdiodit. sanela mexute klasshi iyo, me mesameshi da aravin daobda tu vin iqceoda uketesad! sanela unda gazrdiliyo, kekis „satadarigo-deda“ gamxdariyo da ojaxistvis moeara, rodesac debi wasulebi iyvnen. man tavis tavze udidesi pasuxismgebloba aigo, igi kargad iqceoda. igi ar iyo iseti gogo romelsac direqtoris otaxshi ibarebdnen, amitomac dzalian shemeshinda, rodesac damirekes… oriveni unda gasaubrebaze mivsuliyavit. marto me rom vyofiliyavi dabarebuli, gasagebi iqneboda, magram, sanela?! neta ra moxda?… vinme xo ar gardaicvala?
muclis tkivilebi damewyo, koridorshi gavdiodit. albat shemodgomis bolo an zamtris dasawyisi iyo. tavs paralizeburad vgrdznobdi. rodesac direqtoris kabinetshi shevedit, skamze mamachemi ijda, ramac cota damamshvida da xasiatze momiyvana. mama mxiarulebas nishnavs, magram ara amjerad. yvelaferi formalurad gamoiyureboda, me ki tavs arakomfortulav vgrdznobdi da gulwrfelad rom vtqva, umetesoba ver gavige tu ra ilaparaka im kacma. mxolod is gavige, rom dedas da mamas exeboda da sasiamovno araferi yofila… magram axla mivxvdi… axla, rodesac am wigns vwer, yvelafers vxvdebi.
1990 wlis noembershi socalurma servisebma shemowmeba gaaketes, chveni tavebi ki mamas chaabares. situacia, romelshidac chven dedastan ertad gviwevda cxovreba, uaryofitad daaxasiates. deda sasowarkvetili iyo. tiroda da tiroda. igi kovzebs gvirtyavda, ar gvismenda, saxeshi gvitylashunebda, magram ratqmaunda, sakutari shvilebi dzalian uyvarda. igi ubralod rtuli kondiciebis qvesh gaizarda da albat mama xvdeboda amas. igi imave dges mivida mastn da utxra: „me ar minda, rom shen isini dakargo, iurka.“
igi gamosworebas itxovda da mama aset situaciashi ar xumbrobs. darwmunebuli var, uwmawuri sityvebi mravlad iqneboda. „tu yvelaferi ar gamoswordeba, bavshvebs vegarasodes naxav“ an raimde magdagvari… tumca zustad ar vici ra moxda. erti is vici, rom sanela mamastan ertad cxovrobda ramdenime kvirit, me ki dedastan. sanelas ar moswonda mamastan cxovreba. me da is xshirad vpoulobdit iatakze momdzinar mamas, garshemo ki ludis qilebi da botlebi eyara. „mama, gaigvidze, gaigvidze!“ magram is mainc agrdzeleba dzils. es chemtvis dzalian ucnauri iyo, ratom aketebda amas? ar vicodit ra gveqna, magram chven gvindoda davxmarebodit mas. iqneb iyineboda? mas sabnebi da pirsaxocebi davafaret, cota rom gamtbariyo. mainc verafers vxvdebodi. sanelas albat meti esmoda. man sheamchnia tu rogori fetqebadi xasiati hqonda mamas, tu rogor sheedzlo ramdenime wamshi afetebuliyo da datvisavit yvirili daewyo, albat am yvelafris eshinoda. sanelas misi patara dzma enatreboda. mas dedastan dabruneba undoda, me ki – piriqit. mama menatreboda, ert dges davureke, albat sasowarkvetili xma mqonda, tavs dzalian martod vgrdznobdi, sanelas gareshe.
„agar minda aq cxovreba, shentan minda.“ – veubnebi me.
„modi aq,“ – mipasuxa, – „taqss gamovidzaxeb.“
muclis tkivilebi damewyo, koridorshi gavdiodit. albat shemodgomis bolo an zamtris dasawyisi iyo. tavs paralizeburad vgrdznobdi. rodesac direqtoris kabinetshi shevedit, skamze mamachemi ijda, ramac cota damamshvida da xasiatze momiyvana. mama mxiarulebas nishnavs, magram ara amjerad. yvelaferi formalurad gamoiyureboda, me ki tavs arakomfortulav vgrdznobdi da gulwrfelad rom vtqva, umetesoba ver gavige tu ra ilaparaka im kacma. mxolod is gavige, rom dedas da mamas exeboda da sasiamovno araferi yofila… magram axla mivxvdi… axla, rodesac am wigns vwer, yvelafers vxvdebi.
1990 wlis noembershi socalurma servisebma shemowmeba gaaketes, chveni tavebi ki mamas chaabares. situacia, romelshidac chven dedastan ertad gviwevda cxovreba, uaryofitad daaxasiates. deda sasowarkvetili iyo. tiroda da tiroda. igi kovzebs gvirtyavda, ar gvismenda, saxeshi gvitylashunebda, magram ratqmaunda, sakutari shvilebi dzalian uyvarda. igi ubralod rtuli kondiciebis qvesh gaizarda da albat mama xvdeboda amas. igi imave dges mivida mastn da utxra: „me ar minda, rom shen isini dakargo, iurka.“
igi gamosworebas itxovda da mama aset situaciashi ar xumbrobs. darwmunebuli var, uwmawuri sityvebi mravlad iqneboda. „tu yvelaferi ar gamoswordeba, bavshvebs vegarasodes naxav“ an raimde magdagvari… tumca zustad ar vici ra moxda. erti is vici, rom sanela mamastan ertad cxovrobda ramdenime kvirit, me ki dedastan. sanelas ar moswonda mamastan cxovreba. me da is xshirad vpoulobdit iatakze momdzinar mamas, garshemo ki ludis qilebi da botlebi eyara. „mama, gaigvidze, gaigvidze!“ magram is mainc agrdzeleba dzils. es chemtvis dzalian ucnauri iyo, ratom aketebda amas? ar vicodit ra gveqna, magram chven gvindoda davxmarebodit mas. iqneb iyineboda? mas sabnebi da pirsaxocebi davafaret, cota rom gamtbariyo. mainc verafers vxvdebodi. sanelas albat meti esmoda. man sheamchnia tu rogori fetqebadi xasiati hqonda mamas, tu rogor sheedzlo ramdenime wamshi afetebuliyo da datvisavit yvirili daewyo, albat am yvelafris eshinoda. sanelas misi patara dzma enatreboda. mas dedastan dabruneba undoda, me ki – piriqit. mama menatreboda, ert dges davureke, albat sasowarkvetili xma mqonda, tavs dzalian martod vgrdznobdi, sanelas gareshe.
„agar minda aq cxovreba, shentan minda.“ – veubnebi me.
„modi aq,“ – mipasuxa, – „taqss gamovidzaxeb.“
#5magram chven vart axlos. sanela aris stilisti, xandaxan xalxi midis mis salonshi da eubneba:“rogor gavxar zlatans” , is ki pasuxobs “gmerto chemo, is mgavs me” is mkacria. magram arcerts ar gagvivlia ioli gza. mamachemi, sefiki. hardsidan rozengardshi gadavida. mas hqonda didi guli da is chventvis apirebda sikvdils. me vicnobdi mas rogorc uikend-mamas, romelic chventvis nayins da hamburgers amzadebda.
me ki mashinve davinaxe, rom iyo carieli adgili. ragaca dakarguli, sheidzleba qali. iq iyo televizori, divani, wignebis karada da ori sawoli. magram ara ragac damatebiti, komforti. iq iyo bevri ludis qilebi magidaze da iatakze da rodesac igi iwyebda alagebas, marto ert mxares aketebda, amis shemdeg ambobda “danarchens vizav xvale” magram es arasdros ar iyo martali da amis shemdeg viwyebdit chven.
mama iyo sashineli samushao saatebis dros, rodesac igi brundeboda tavis yvela nivtebs yrida da midioda telefonis an televizorisken. mas ar undoda chama. es iyo misi msoflio, magnitofonze iugoslaviuri folkloruli musikis mosmenit. is amaze gijdeboda. man ramdenime kasetac chawera. is iyo shoumeni, rodesac kargad aketebda. magram drois umetes nawils igi tavis msofliostan ertad atarebda da tu me davapirebdi megobrebis amoyvanas, is meubneboda:
“ar moiyvano aq!”
me arasdros momyavda megobrebi da rodesac isini mekitxebodnen tu ratom, me ar mqonda pasuxi. telefoni ar iyo chemtvis mnishvnelovani. me ar myavda iseti vinme saxlshi, vistanac visaubrebdi, an ki, rodesac rame mnishvnelovani xdeboda, mama iq iyo. mas sheedzlo yvelaferi gaeketebina chemtvis.
mas arasdros eshinoda dacvis. me shemedzlo fexburtis tamashis an skolashi yofnis dros gavsuliyavi garet. sapko, chemi naxevar-dzma, tavdapirvelad chemtan cxovrobda da ra tqma unda xandaxan vesaubrebodi xolme. agar maxsovs ramdeni wlis iyo, cota xnis mere ki mamachemma igi gaushva.
me dziritadad garet fexburts vtamashobdi an velosipedit vmodzraobdi, saxlshi ki sachmelad movdiodi rogorc mgeli da rodesac macivars vxsnidi: gtxov, gtxov iqneb iyos rame! magram, araferi. rogorc yoveltvis: karaqi, rdze, puri da xandaxan iyo is bednieri dge, rodesac macivarshi wveni iyo, romelic arabebis magaziashi iyo nayidi, radgan iafi girda da ra tqma unda ludi, Pripps Blå da Carlsberg 6 cali metalis yutshi. xandaxan iyo marto ludi, chemi muceli ki sachmlis dziebashi iyo. me mtkioda muceli, rac arasdros damaviwydeba. kitxet elenas! me yoveltvis vambob, rom macivari unda iyos savse da araferi sheicvalos. vinsenti tiris imitom, rom ar aris pasta, romelic sinamdvileshi yoveltvisaa. igi gabrazda imitom, rom ver miigo sachmeli swrafad. igi ver xvdeba, tu rogori cxovreba aqvs.
me shemedzlo gameketebina yvelaferi makaronis an xorcis gamo. shemedzlo muceli. me vchamdi bevrs, xolo roca dedastan mivdiodi aravin mesalmeboda gashlili xelebit. ase viyavi, “jandaba, zlatanic modis? ratom ar achama sefikma mas? magram chven mainc vexmarebodit ertmanets. mamis magivrad me gamovucxade omi luds. xandaxan vgvridi mas, magram ara sul, radgan amas gartulebebi moyveboda, magram cotas.
igi ar amchnevda arafers. ludi iyo yvelgan, magidaze, karadebze da xshirad me vagrovebdi cariel qilebs, shemdeg ki vcvlidi mas. xandaxan vagrovebdi 50 an 100 kronors (100 an 200 qila) da shemdeg anazgaurebit kmayofili viyavi. magram ra tqma unda, es ar manichebda bednierobas, yvela aset situaciashi me ufro vicnobdi mas. vicodi tu rogor melaparaka mastan. mtvrali shesanishnavi iyo. magram meore dge sashineli iyo. aset situaciashi igi ebrdzoda sinatles. sxva dros ki geniosi iyo. xandaxan igi madzlevda 500 konors. me ki vyidulobdi fexburtis suratebs. ert yutshi vigebdi ert sagech rezins da 3 stikers. vfiqrobdi romeli iqneboda? vocnebobdi. maradona? xshirad viyavi imedgacruebuli, gansakutrebit ki mashin rodesac shvedi ucnobi fexburtelebis stikerebi mxvdeboda. ert dges is movida saxlshi ragac yutit. rodesac gavxseni iq iyo yvela sauketeso brazilieli fexburtelebis suratebi. xandaxan chven vuyurebdit ertad televizors, vllaparakobdit. kargi dro iyo.
magram sxva dros iyo mtvrali. tavshi cudi azrebi mitrialdeboda da megona, roca gavizrdebodi, mas davemsgavsebodi. am fiqrebs ver gavurbodi, rogorc chemi dzma. me vutxari mas: “mama, shen bevrs svav”, amis gamo chven shinagani brdzolebi gvqonda simartle rom gitxrat, zogjer uazro. magram me mindoda mechvenebina, rom chem tavtan shemedzlo gamklaveba, amis shemdeg ki chvens saxlshi qaosi iyo.
is arasdros gvechxubeboda, arasdros. kargi, ertxel man haershi 2 metrze amagdo da sawolze daveci, radgan me sanelas aqsesuarebshi viqqeqebodi. shignidan is iyo yvelaze ketili kaci msoflioshi da me vici, ratom ar qonda advili cxovreba. “is svavs, rata misi mwuxareba sasmelshi chaklas”, es mitxra chemma dzmam, shesadzloa ar iyo sruli simartle. omma masze didi gavlena iqonia.
omi sashineli ramea. magram, me amis shesaxeb araferi gamigia, radgan daculi viyavi. ar mesmoda ratom iyvnen chemi debi da dedachemi shavebshi chacmulebi, megona es modis axali tendencia iyo. magram bebiachemi gardaicvala xorvatiashi bombebis chamogdebis shemdeg da amitom yvela mifrtxildeboda me. aravis undoda gamego me, tu ratom eshinoda xalxs serbebis da bosnielebis an kidev rame sxva. magram es mamachemistvis sashineleba iyo. radgan is bielinidan, bosniidan iyo. im qalaqshi mas megobrebi da tavisi ojaxi hyavda, ucbad ki iq mivida omi. bielina miwastan gasworda da ucnauri ar iyo, rom igi tavis tavs kvlav muslims uwodebda. serbebi sheichrnen qalaqshi da asobit muslimebi gaanadgures. vfiqrob, rom umetesobas igi icnobda, misi ojaxi ki gaiqca. bielinas mosaxleoba sheicvala, serbebi cariel saxlebshi shevidnen, mamachemis saxlshic. vigaca shevida da chasaxlda mis saxlshi da me namdvilad mesmis, tu ratom ar hqonda mas dro chemtvis, gansakutrebit ki mashin, rodesac mteli game televizortan ijda an rodesac satelefono zars elodeboda. omma igi shechama, is gaxda adamiani, romelic dinebas mihyveboda. is ijda marto, svavda, usmenda iugoslaviur musikebs. me vcdilobdi misgan shors davmjdariyavi an dedachemtan wavsuliyavi. is sxva samyarodan iyo.
mamachemistvis es mxolod chemi da misi urtiertoba iyo. dedachemistvis es yvelaferi gasartobi iyo. xalxi modioda da midioda, wasvlisas isini kars ijaxunebdnen. dedachemi chveni saxlidan gadavida, tumca imave quchaze, kronmansis gzaze. misi axali saxli chems deidastan, hanifestan iyo, hanastan – rogorc me mas vedzaxi. me, keki da sanela axlos viyavit. chven faqtebi wamovayenet, magram ragac jandaba dedastan midioda. chemi naxevar-da ufro da ufro efloboda narkotikebshi da deda yoveltvis krunchxvebshi iyo, rodesac telefonze rekavdnen an vinme karze akakunebda. nutu ar gvqonda sakmarisi incidentebi? axla ra? is sachiroze adre daberda, dedas axlac ezizgeba yvela saxis narkotiki. arc ise didi xnis win chven visaubret, is shokshi iyo:
„macivarshi wamalia!“ „gmerto chemo, wamali“. me davudzaxe kekis: „ra jandabas aketebs wamali dedas macivarshi?“ mas ar esmoda, tumca shemdeg mivxvdit. is snusze saubrobda(shveduri sagechi tambaqo – avt.).
„deda, es mxolod snusia“.
„igive jandaba“, – tqva man.
am wlebma didi dagi daasva dedas da chven uketesad unda movqceuliyavit. magram ar vicodit es rogor gagveketebina. chven mxolod uxeshi moqceva vicodit. chemi naxevardis da misi narkotikebis ambavi male gairkva da is sareabilitacio centrshi gaagzavnes, tumca is isev da isev efloboda im chaobshi, amitomac xshirad mosdioda dedastan chxubi. detalebi zustad ar vici. ase rom es yvelaferi dzalian dzneli iyo, magram chen ojaxshi es tradiciad iqca. chvenshi yoveltvis iyo ukmayofileba da xshirad dramatulad vambobdit: “arasdros agar minda sheni naxva.” – ragac amdagvars.
maxsovs ertxel vstumrobdi mas da mis narkotikebs mis patara binashi. mgoni chemi dabadebis dges iyo. ase maxsovs. ragac sachuqrebi vuyide da tavidan dzalian megobrulad meqceoda. tumca roca saabazanoshi shesvla davapire panikashi chavarda da chemi shechereba scada:
“ara, ara!”
– damiyvira da ragac nivtebi saswrafod akrifa. vicodi ragac ver iyo kargad. ragac saidumlos malavda. manamdec bevrjer moxda msgavsi ram. tumca rogorc ukve vtqvi am yvelafers chemgan malavdnen. me mqonda chemi vlosipedi, chemi fexrbuti da chemi ocnbebi brus lize da muhamed alize. mindoda matnairi vyofiliyavi.
mamas yavda ufrosi dzma, romelsac sabahudini erqva da dzvel iugoslaviashi cxovrobda. mas sapkos edzaxdnen da chems ufros dzmasac mis sapativcemulod daarqves es saxeli. sabahudini boqsiori iyo, namdvilad nichieri. is ibrdzoda “BK Radnicki” -stvis kraguevachshi da iugoslaviis chempionic gaxda gundtan ertad, is aseve ibrdzoda iugoslaviis nakrebshi. magram 1967 wels, rodesac sapko axali daqorwinebuli iyo, sul ragac 23 wlis, mdinare neretvashi shecura. dineba iyo da vfiqrob problema sheeqmna gulze an filtvebze. dinebam sabolood daaxrcho is. warmoidinet ramxela dartyma iyo es ojaxistvis da amis shemdeg mamachemi namdvili fanati gaxda. mas yvela didebuli tamashi chawerili qonda da ara marto sabahudinis, aramed muhamed alis, formanis da taisonis, aseve brus lisa da jeki chanis filmebi dzvel kasetebze.
chven am yvelafers vuyurebdit roca televizoris win vsxdebodit. shveduri televizia namdvili nagavi iyo. chven sruliad gansxvavebul samyaroshi vcxovrobdit. 20 wlis viyavi, rodesac pirvveli shveduri filmi vnaxe da warmodgenac ki ar mqonda shved gmirebze an sportsmenebze, magalitad rogoricaa ingemar stenmarki. magram samagierod vicodi ali! namdvili legenda! is aketebda tavis saqmes, miuxedavad imisa tu ras ityoda xalxi. arasdros ixdida bodishs da es aris is, rac arasdros damaviwydeba. is namdvilad sauketeso iyo. mec ase unda mecxovra amitom migan ramdenime gamotqma avige, magalitad: “me udiadesi var”.
rosengardshi mkacri xasiati gchirdeba da tu uxeshad mogmartaven, yvelaze uaresi mat shoris: dzukna, mashin ukan vegar daixev.
magram rogorc wesi chven xshirad ar vexveodit aurzaurshi. sakutari tavistvis cudi aravis surda, ra tqma unda. vxedavdi mogriale rasistebs, romlebic 30 noembers awyobnen aqciebs da ertxel, malmos festivalze, davinaxe uzarmazari banda rosengardidan, daaxloebit 200 kaci, romlebic ert tips misdevdnen. es namdvilad ar iyo samartliani. magram, radganac es bichebi chemi samezoblodan iyvnen, mec gaviqeci. aramgonia im yvelafris shemdeg tavi kargad egrdzno m tips. yvelani dzalian velurebi da gijebi viyavit. magram zogjer es arctu ise advilia.
me ki mashinve davinaxe, rom iyo carieli adgili. ragaca dakarguli, sheidzleba qali. iq iyo televizori, divani, wignebis karada da ori sawoli. magram ara ragac damatebiti, komforti. iq iyo bevri ludis qilebi magidaze da iatakze da rodesac igi iwyebda alagebas, marto ert mxares aketebda, amis shemdeg ambobda “danarchens vizav xvale” magram es arasdros ar iyo martali da amis shemdeg viwyebdit chven.
mama iyo sashineli samushao saatebis dros, rodesac igi brundeboda tavis yvela nivtebs yrida da midioda telefonis an televizorisken. mas ar undoda chama. es iyo misi msoflio, magnitofonze iugoslaviuri folkloruli musikis mosmenit. is amaze gijdeboda. man ramdenime kasetac chawera. is iyo shoumeni, rodesac kargad aketebda. magram drois umetes nawils igi tavis msofliostan ertad atarebda da tu me davapirebdi megobrebis amoyvanas, is meubneboda:
“ar moiyvano aq!”
me arasdros momyavda megobrebi da rodesac isini mekitxebodnen tu ratom, me ar mqonda pasuxi. telefoni ar iyo chemtvis mnishvnelovani. me ar myavda iseti vinme saxlshi, vistanac visaubrebdi, an ki, rodesac rame mnishvnelovani xdeboda, mama iq iyo. mas sheedzlo yvelaferi gaeketebina chemtvis.
mas arasdros eshinoda dacvis. me shemedzlo fexburtis tamashis an skolashi yofnis dros gavsuliyavi garet. sapko, chemi naxevar-dzma, tavdapirvelad chemtan cxovrobda da ra tqma unda xandaxan vesaubrebodi xolme. agar maxsovs ramdeni wlis iyo, cota xnis mere ki mamachemma igi gaushva.
me dziritadad garet fexburts vtamashobdi an velosipedit vmodzraobdi, saxlshi ki sachmelad movdiodi rogorc mgeli da rodesac macivars vxsnidi: gtxov, gtxov iqneb iyos rame! magram, araferi. rogorc yoveltvis: karaqi, rdze, puri da xandaxan iyo is bednieri dge, rodesac macivarshi wveni iyo, romelic arabebis magaziashi iyo nayidi, radgan iafi girda da ra tqma unda ludi, Pripps Blå da Carlsberg 6 cali metalis yutshi. xandaxan iyo marto ludi, chemi muceli ki sachmlis dziebashi iyo. me mtkioda muceli, rac arasdros damaviwydeba. kitxet elenas! me yoveltvis vambob, rom macivari unda iyos savse da araferi sheicvalos. vinsenti tiris imitom, rom ar aris pasta, romelic sinamdvileshi yoveltvisaa. igi gabrazda imitom, rom ver miigo sachmeli swrafad. igi ver xvdeba, tu rogori cxovreba aqvs.
me shemedzlo gameketebina yvelaferi makaronis an xorcis gamo. shemedzlo muceli. me vchamdi bevrs, xolo roca dedastan mivdiodi aravin mesalmeboda gashlili xelebit. ase viyavi, “jandaba, zlatanic modis? ratom ar achama sefikma mas? magram chven mainc vexmarebodit ertmanets. mamis magivrad me gamovucxade omi luds. xandaxan vgvridi mas, magram ara sul, radgan amas gartulebebi moyveboda, magram cotas.
igi ar amchnevda arafers. ludi iyo yvelgan, magidaze, karadebze da xshirad me vagrovebdi cariel qilebs, shemdeg ki vcvlidi mas. xandaxan vagrovebdi 50 an 100 kronors (100 an 200 qila) da shemdeg anazgaurebit kmayofili viyavi. magram ra tqma unda, es ar manichebda bednierobas, yvela aset situaciashi me ufro vicnobdi mas. vicodi tu rogor melaparaka mastan. mtvrali shesanishnavi iyo. magram meore dge sashineli iyo. aset situaciashi igi ebrdzoda sinatles. sxva dros ki geniosi iyo. xandaxan igi madzlevda 500 konors. me ki vyidulobdi fexburtis suratebs. ert yutshi vigebdi ert sagech rezins da 3 stikers. vfiqrobdi romeli iqneboda? vocnebobdi. maradona? xshirad viyavi imedgacruebuli, gansakutrebit ki mashin rodesac shvedi ucnobi fexburtelebis stikerebi mxvdeboda. ert dges is movida saxlshi ragac yutit. rodesac gavxseni iq iyo yvela sauketeso brazilieli fexburtelebis suratebi. xandaxan chven vuyurebdit ertad televizors, vllaparakobdit. kargi dro iyo.
magram sxva dros iyo mtvrali. tavshi cudi azrebi mitrialdeboda da megona, roca gavizrdebodi, mas davemsgavsebodi. am fiqrebs ver gavurbodi, rogorc chemi dzma. me vutxari mas: “mama, shen bevrs svav”, amis gamo chven shinagani brdzolebi gvqonda simartle rom gitxrat, zogjer uazro. magram me mindoda mechvenebina, rom chem tavtan shemedzlo gamklaveba, amis shemdeg ki chvens saxlshi qaosi iyo.
is arasdros gvechxubeboda, arasdros. kargi, ertxel man haershi 2 metrze amagdo da sawolze daveci, radgan me sanelas aqsesuarebshi viqqeqebodi. shignidan is iyo yvelaze ketili kaci msoflioshi da me vici, ratom ar qonda advili cxovreba. “is svavs, rata misi mwuxareba sasmelshi chaklas”, es mitxra chemma dzmam, shesadzloa ar iyo sruli simartle. omma masze didi gavlena iqonia.
omi sashineli ramea. magram, me amis shesaxeb araferi gamigia, radgan daculi viyavi. ar mesmoda ratom iyvnen chemi debi da dedachemi shavebshi chacmulebi, megona es modis axali tendencia iyo. magram bebiachemi gardaicvala xorvatiashi bombebis chamogdebis shemdeg da amitom yvela mifrtxildeboda me. aravis undoda gamego me, tu ratom eshinoda xalxs serbebis da bosnielebis an kidev rame sxva. magram es mamachemistvis sashineleba iyo. radgan is bielinidan, bosniidan iyo. im qalaqshi mas megobrebi da tavisi ojaxi hyavda, ucbad ki iq mivida omi. bielina miwastan gasworda da ucnauri ar iyo, rom igi tavis tavs kvlav muslims uwodebda. serbebi sheichrnen qalaqshi da asobit muslimebi gaanadgures. vfiqrob, rom umetesobas igi icnobda, misi ojaxi ki gaiqca. bielinas mosaxleoba sheicvala, serbebi cariel saxlebshi shevidnen, mamachemis saxlshic. vigaca shevida da chasaxlda mis saxlshi da me namdvilad mesmis, tu ratom ar hqonda mas dro chemtvis, gansakutrebit ki mashin, rodesac mteli game televizortan ijda an rodesac satelefono zars elodeboda. omma igi shechama, is gaxda adamiani, romelic dinebas mihyveboda. is ijda marto, svavda, usmenda iugoslaviur musikebs. me vcdilobdi misgan shors davmjdariyavi an dedachemtan wavsuliyavi. is sxva samyarodan iyo.
mamachemistvis es mxolod chemi da misi urtiertoba iyo. dedachemistvis es yvelaferi gasartobi iyo. xalxi modioda da midioda, wasvlisas isini kars ijaxunebdnen. dedachemi chveni saxlidan gadavida, tumca imave quchaze, kronmansis gzaze. misi axali saxli chems deidastan, hanifestan iyo, hanastan – rogorc me mas vedzaxi. me, keki da sanela axlos viyavit. chven faqtebi wamovayenet, magram ragac jandaba dedastan midioda. chemi naxevar-da ufro da ufro efloboda narkotikebshi da deda yoveltvis krunchxvebshi iyo, rodesac telefonze rekavdnen an vinme karze akakunebda. nutu ar gvqonda sakmarisi incidentebi? axla ra? is sachiroze adre daberda, dedas axlac ezizgeba yvela saxis narkotiki. arc ise didi xnis win chven visaubret, is shokshi iyo:
„macivarshi wamalia!“ „gmerto chemo, wamali“. me davudzaxe kekis: „ra jandabas aketebs wamali dedas macivarshi?“ mas ar esmoda, tumca shemdeg mivxvdit. is snusze saubrobda(shveduri sagechi tambaqo – avt.).
„deda, es mxolod snusia“.
„igive jandaba“, – tqva man.
am wlebma didi dagi daasva dedas da chven uketesad unda movqceuliyavit. magram ar vicodit es rogor gagveketebina. chven mxolod uxeshi moqceva vicodit. chemi naxevardis da misi narkotikebis ambavi male gairkva da is sareabilitacio centrshi gaagzavnes, tumca is isev da isev efloboda im chaobshi, amitomac xshirad mosdioda dedastan chxubi. detalebi zustad ar vici. ase rom es yvelaferi dzalian dzneli iyo, magram chen ojaxshi es tradiciad iqca. chvenshi yoveltvis iyo ukmayofileba da xshirad dramatulad vambobdit: “arasdros agar minda sheni naxva.” – ragac amdagvars.
maxsovs ertxel vstumrobdi mas da mis narkotikebs mis patara binashi. mgoni chemi dabadebis dges iyo. ase maxsovs. ragac sachuqrebi vuyide da tavidan dzalian megobrulad meqceoda. tumca roca saabazanoshi shesvla davapire panikashi chavarda da chemi shechereba scada:
“ara, ara!”
– damiyvira da ragac nivtebi saswrafod akrifa. vicodi ragac ver iyo kargad. ragac saidumlos malavda. manamdec bevrjer moxda msgavsi ram. tumca rogorc ukve vtqvi am yvelafers chemgan malavdnen. me mqonda chemi vlosipedi, chemi fexrbuti da chemi ocnbebi brus lize da muhamed alize. mindoda matnairi vyofiliyavi.
mamas yavda ufrosi dzma, romelsac sabahudini erqva da dzvel iugoslaviashi cxovrobda. mas sapkos edzaxdnen da chems ufros dzmasac mis sapativcemulod daarqves es saxeli. sabahudini boqsiori iyo, namdvilad nichieri. is ibrdzoda “BK Radnicki” -stvis kraguevachshi da iugoslaviis chempionic gaxda gundtan ertad, is aseve ibrdzoda iugoslaviis nakrebshi. magram 1967 wels, rodesac sapko axali daqorwinebuli iyo, sul ragac 23 wlis, mdinare neretvashi shecura. dineba iyo da vfiqrob problema sheeqmna gulze an filtvebze. dinebam sabolood daaxrcho is. warmoidinet ramxela dartyma iyo es ojaxistvis da amis shemdeg mamachemi namdvili fanati gaxda. mas yvela didebuli tamashi chawerili qonda da ara marto sabahudinis, aramed muhamed alis, formanis da taisonis, aseve brus lisa da jeki chanis filmebi dzvel kasetebze.
chven am yvelafers vuyurebdit roca televizoris win vsxdebodit. shveduri televizia namdvili nagavi iyo. chven sruliad gansxvavebul samyaroshi vcxovrobdit. 20 wlis viyavi, rodesac pirvveli shveduri filmi vnaxe da warmodgenac ki ar mqonda shved gmirebze an sportsmenebze, magalitad rogoricaa ingemar stenmarki. magram samagierod vicodi ali! namdvili legenda! is aketebda tavis saqmes, miuxedavad imisa tu ras ityoda xalxi. arasdros ixdida bodishs da es aris is, rac arasdros damaviwydeba. is namdvilad sauketeso iyo. mec ase unda mecxovra amitom migan ramdenime gamotqma avige, magalitad: “me udiadesi var”.
rosengardshi mkacri xasiati gchirdeba da tu uxeshad mogmartaven, yvelaze uaresi mat shoris: dzukna, mashin ukan vegar daixev.
magram rogorc wesi chven xshirad ar vexveodit aurzaurshi. sakutari tavistvis cudi aravis surda, ra tqma unda. vxedavdi mogriale rasistebs, romlebic 30 noembers awyobnen aqciebs da ertxel, malmos festivalze, davinaxe uzarmazari banda rosengardidan, daaxloebit 200 kaci, romlebic ert tips misdevdnen. es namdvilad ar iyo samartliani. magram, radganac es bichebi chemi samezoblodan iyvnen, mec gaviqeci. aramgonia im yvelafris shemdeg tavi kargad egrdzno m tips. yvelani dzalian velurebi da gijebi viyavit. magram zogjer es arctu ise advilia.
#6roca me da mama “stenkulas skolastan” vcxovrobdit, xshirad vrchebodi gvianobamde dedastan da shinisken gzaze unda gamevlo bneli gvirabi, romelic kvetda “emiralis” quchas da “anelundis” xids. ertxel, wlebis win, mamachemi gadzarcves da sastikad scemes am adgilas, ris gamoc saavadmyofoshi dazianebuli filtvit mivida. miuxedavad imisa, rom es ar mindoda, amaze xshirad vfiqrobdi. rac ufro vcdilobdi am ambis daviwyebas, mit ufro xshirad mitivtivteboda gonebashi. am ubanshi iyo rkinigzis liandagi da qucha. aris aseve amazrzeni xeivani, ramdenime buchqi da ori lamfis bodzi, erti gvirabis dasawyisshi da meore – boloshi.
umetesad iyo sibnele da sashishi vibraciebi. amitomac es ori lamfa iqca chemtvis tavshesafrad. mat shoris ki gijivit mivrbodi achqarebuli guliscemit. sul megona, rom iq sadgac sashishi bichebi iqnebodnen, isetebi, rogorebic mamas daesxnen tavs. amitomac vfiqrobdi, rom tu chqara gaviqceodi yvelaferi kargad iqneboda da saxlshi misuli dzlivs vsuntqavdi. me xom muhamed ali ar viyavi.
xalxi mekitxeboda: ra unda gameketebina me, tu ar viqnebodi fexburteli? me ar mqonda amaze pasuxi. magram shesadzloa me gavmxdariyavi borotmoqmedi. im dros bevri danashauli xdeboda. ar momwonda, rom chven sheidzleba vinme gagvedzarcva an rame mogvepara. magram es mainc moxda, ara mxolod motocikletebze, aramed magaziebshic da amas xshirad vaketebdit. es chemtvis tragedia iyo da bednieri viyavi, rom mamachemi amas ver naxavda. darwmunebuli var is isev svamda, magram isev hqonda wesebi. tqven sworad unda moqceuliyavit da ar mogeparat, winaagmdeg shemtxvevashi ar geqnebodat shansi. is gvaidzuleba cidan dabla dashvebas, shesadzloa saxit danarcxebas.
magram im dros chven magazia Wessels-shi qurtukebi aviget da me gamimartla. chven gvqonda personalis formebi, romelic 400 kronori girda. es ar iyo chveulebrivi qurdoba. magram chemi megobris mamam sheityo chvens shesaxeb da rodesac mogvianebit saxlshi mivedi damxvda werili, zlatan ibrahimovichi daakaves qurdobistvis, bla bla bla, me ki gavanadgure is manam, sanam mamachemi naxavda. me gamimartla da kvlav gavagrdzela qurdoba, tumca shesadzloa es cudad dasrulebuliyo.
chven vzrunavdit masze. yvelaze mgrdznobiare sanela uyo. is chems mimart mkacri iyo da me win gadavudeqi mas. me pasuxismgeblobas vgrdznobdi. tumca mqonda shegrdzneba, rom me ar viyavi wmindani, amitom arasdros myolia bevri megobari. me agresiuli viyavi, chemtvis gijuri dge iyo, tu vinme dauaxlovdeboda maqsis da vinsents. es aris faqti, romelsac ver viviwyebt. mashin me ormagad momzadebuli viyavi.
me disciplinirebuli da gareuli viyavi, ar mainteresebda amis shesaxeb filosofia. me vaketebdi orives, ganxilvas da shesrulebas. ase rom, es ar iyo mxolod saubari: me var sauketeso, vin jandaba xar shen? ra tqma unda, es mxolod bavshvuri saqcieli iyo, magram ar miyvarda saqmis ar shesruleba da qatamivit saubari, rogorc shvedi varskvlavebi ambobdnen. me mindoda, rom vyofiliyavi sauketeso, tumca ara imitom, rom gavmxdariyavi supervarskvlavi an rame msgavsi. ieso, me movedi rosengardistvis! magram mgoni chemi fiqrebi da saqcieli gansxvavdeboda.
me problemebi mqonda da gagijebuli viyavi, magram me mqonda chemi xasiati. me ar viyavi skolashi tavis droze. me problemebi mqonda dilit adgomastan dakavshirebit, tumca vasrulebdi sashinao davalebas, zogjer mainc. matematikis davaleba martivi iyo. bam, bam, bam da me vipove gamosavali. es iyo isetive sasiamovno, rogorc safexburto moedanze yofna. fotoebi da gadawyvetilebebi movida chemtan, rogorc elva. tumca zogjer maswavlebeli fiqrobda, rom me vityuebodi. me ar viyavi iseti bichi, romelic gaaketebda imas, rasac skola misgan elis. me ufro skolidan wasvla momwonda, magram miuxedavad amisa, vswavlobdi. me vkitxulobdi yvelafers testebamde da yvelaferi maviwydeboda shemdeg dges. me ar viyavi namdvili cudi bichi. me problemebi mqonda jdomaze da ert adgilas gacherebaze, zogs ki ar moswonda chemi sharvali.
tqven icit tu ra rtuli situaciaa balkanetis naxevarkundzulze. chemma dam misi narkotikebis gamo shewyvita kontaqti ojaxtan. magram shesadzloa es yvelaferi mosalodnelic iyo chventvis, chven xom sareabilitacio centris gamo mravali “chxubi” gadavitanet. magram chemma meore naxevadac mowyda ojaxs, dedachemma is ubralod amoshala, magram naklebad mesmoda tu ratom, es yvelaferi mis sheyvarebuls exeboda, romelic iugoslaviidan iyo. mas da chems das chxubi mosvliat, dedachemma tavis pozicia daichira da ramdenime daskvnac dado, magram chemi da axirebuli gogo iyo da mat xmamagali kamati mouxdat, ertmanets ragac ucnaurad mimartavdnen, ratqmaunda es me ar maxarebda magram arc es iyo “msoflios dasasruli”.
sul ojaxshi 5 dedmamishvili viyavit, magram wamierad es sheicvala, chven samni davrchit, me aleqsandri da sanela, saqme uketesobisken namdvilad ar midioda, es yvelaferi qvaze weras gavda, chemi naxevarda chven ojaxs agar “ekutvnoda”. gavida wlebi da is wavida, magram 15 wlis shemdeg mii shvili movida da dedas utxra🙁diax mas xavs shvili romelic dedachems shvilishvilad ekutvnis)
“- gamarjoba bebia(magram dedas mastan kontaqti ar surda).”
“- vwuxvar” da man telefoni gatisha.
ar mjeroda roca es yvelaferi chemi yurit gavigone. tavs ise cudad vgrdznobdi rom sityvebit ver gadmovcem, mindoda gavmqraliyavi. magram miuxedavad yvelafrisa chems ojaxs qonda bevri iseti ram ris gamoc vamayobdi, “me fexburti mqonda”.
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umetesad iyo sibnele da sashishi vibraciebi. amitomac es ori lamfa iqca chemtvis tavshesafrad. mat shoris ki gijivit mivrbodi achqarebuli guliscemit. sul megona, rom iq sadgac sashishi bichebi iqnebodnen, isetebi, rogorebic mamas daesxnen tavs. amitomac vfiqrobdi, rom tu chqara gaviqceodi yvelaferi kargad iqneboda da saxlshi misuli dzlivs vsuntqavdi. me xom muhamed ali ar viyavi.
xalxi mekitxeboda: ra unda gameketebina me, tu ar viqnebodi fexburteli? me ar mqonda amaze pasuxi. magram shesadzloa me gavmxdariyavi borotmoqmedi. im dros bevri danashauli xdeboda. ar momwonda, rom chven sheidzleba vinme gagvedzarcva an rame mogvepara. magram es mainc moxda, ara mxolod motocikletebze, aramed magaziebshic da amas xshirad vaketebdit. es chemtvis tragedia iyo da bednieri viyavi, rom mamachemi amas ver naxavda. darwmunebuli var is isev svamda, magram isev hqonda wesebi. tqven sworad unda moqceuliyavit da ar mogeparat, winaagmdeg shemtxvevashi ar geqnebodat shansi. is gvaidzuleba cidan dabla dashvebas, shesadzloa saxit danarcxebas.
magram im dros chven magazia Wessels-shi qurtukebi aviget da me gamimartla. chven gvqonda personalis formebi, romelic 400 kronori girda. es ar iyo chveulebrivi qurdoba. magram chemi megobris mamam sheityo chvens shesaxeb da rodesac mogvianebit saxlshi mivedi damxvda werili, zlatan ibrahimovichi daakaves qurdobistvis, bla bla bla, me ki gavanadgure is manam, sanam mamachemi naxavda. me gamimartla da kvlav gavagrdzela qurdoba, tumca shesadzloa es cudad dasrulebuliyo.
chven vzrunavdit masze. yvelaze mgrdznobiare sanela uyo. is chems mimart mkacri iyo da me win gadavudeqi mas. me pasuxismgeblobas vgrdznobdi. tumca mqonda shegrdzneba, rom me ar viyavi wmindani, amitom arasdros myolia bevri megobari. me agresiuli viyavi, chemtvis gijuri dge iyo, tu vinme dauaxlovdeboda maqsis da vinsents. es aris faqti, romelsac ver viviwyebt. mashin me ormagad momzadebuli viyavi.
me disciplinirebuli da gareuli viyavi, ar mainteresebda amis shesaxeb filosofia. me vaketebdi orives, ganxilvas da shesrulebas. ase rom, es ar iyo mxolod saubari: me var sauketeso, vin jandaba xar shen? ra tqma unda, es mxolod bavshvuri saqcieli iyo, magram ar miyvarda saqmis ar shesruleba da qatamivit saubari, rogorc shvedi varskvlavebi ambobdnen. me mindoda, rom vyofiliyavi sauketeso, tumca ara imitom, rom gavmxdariyavi supervarskvlavi an rame msgavsi. ieso, me movedi rosengardistvis! magram mgoni chemi fiqrebi da saqcieli gansxvavdeboda.
me problemebi mqonda da gagijebuli viyavi, magram me mqonda chemi xasiati. me ar viyavi skolashi tavis droze. me problemebi mqonda dilit adgomastan dakavshirebit, tumca vasrulebdi sashinao davalebas, zogjer mainc. matematikis davaleba martivi iyo. bam, bam, bam da me vipove gamosavali. es iyo isetive sasiamovno, rogorc safexburto moedanze yofna. fotoebi da gadawyvetilebebi movida chemtan, rogorc elva. tumca zogjer maswavlebeli fiqrobda, rom me vityuebodi. me ar viyavi iseti bichi, romelic gaaketebda imas, rasac skola misgan elis. me ufro skolidan wasvla momwonda, magram miuxedavad amisa, vswavlobdi. me vkitxulobdi yvelafers testebamde da yvelaferi maviwydeboda shemdeg dges. me ar viyavi namdvili cudi bichi. me problemebi mqonda jdomaze da ert adgilas gacherebaze, zogs ki ar moswonda chemi sharvali.
tqven icit tu ra rtuli situaciaa balkanetis naxevarkundzulze. chemma dam misi narkotikebis gamo shewyvita kontaqti ojaxtan. magram shesadzloa es yvelaferi mosalodnelic iyo chventvis, chven xom sareabilitacio centris gamo mravali “chxubi” gadavitanet. magram chemma meore naxevadac mowyda ojaxs, dedachemma is ubralod amoshala, magram naklebad mesmoda tu ratom, es yvelaferi mis sheyvarebuls exeboda, romelic iugoslaviidan iyo. mas da chems das chxubi mosvliat, dedachemma tavis pozicia daichira da ramdenime daskvnac dado, magram chemi da axirebuli gogo iyo da mat xmamagali kamati mouxdat, ertmanets ragac ucnaurad mimartavdnen, ratqmaunda es me ar maxarebda magram arc es iyo “msoflios dasasruli”.
sul ojaxshi 5 dedmamishvili viyavit, magram wamierad es sheicvala, chven samni davrchit, me aleqsandri da sanela, saqme uketesobisken namdvilad ar midioda, es yvelaferi qvaze weras gavda, chemi naxevarda chven ojaxs agar “ekutvnoda”. gavida wlebi da is wavida, magram 15 wlis shemdeg mii shvili movida da dedas utxra🙁diax mas xavs shvili romelic dedachems shvilishvilad ekutvnis)
“- gamarjoba bebia(magram dedas mastan kontaqti ar surda).”
“- vwuxvar” da man telefoni gatisha.
ar mjeroda roca es yvelaferi chemi yurit gavigone. tavs ise cudad vgrdznobdi rom sityvebit ver gadmovcem, mindoda gavmqraliyavi. magram miuxedavad yvelafrisa chems ojaxs qonda bevri iseti ram ris gamoc vamayobdi, “me fexburti mqonda”.
II tavis dasasruli